my 1st semester in my 1st degree..

 what can i say???what can i do???felt like i did very well at the beginning..bt every time its look ok at the started  its will change at the end...when i sat for my 1st paper philosophic and education, everything went wrong...i answered that paper like im reading nothing...what happen to me?i have no answer by myself...i try my best because i want have the great n memorable beginning in my degree..bt will it come true??i have another 3 paper to face...so how??answer to me if u have..its seem very difficult...very challenging... every time its become worse im juz said to myself..be cool ain what ever u get u only need to pas and then boom!u b a teacher..by hook or by crock...pointer is not important bt what kind of teacher will u be after u graduate...be a great teacher...sometimes u are really not good on paper but practically u change into an awesome person...i wish i am..but i want both... i dont know where that kind of feeling came from...its give me a tense..myb because this is my 1st sem....so i put a lot of hope there...im start hesitate to myself...its really not good sign..."ottoke??ottoke???ottoke??"...aigoo la hai..ni la masalah aku sekarang..nak cari mood blaja dh nk dekat sejam...perkembangan kanak2 or child development please be nice with me...please!if u dont i will hate u...did i success to treat it(paper child development)?hahahha...hard bro..hard...leh pening gak kepala yg mls berpikir ni..apa nk jadi...apa nk jd??hahahha...hope everything will fine...n i will get the great one..ameen..