betolkan niat dulu la....

wahh...actually mase time kelas falsafah td aq mmg mcm biasa la xbg attention lngsung dengan ape yg diperkatakan..jasad kt c2 tp pikiran amat melayang entah kemana...aq rase 10 mnt je aq ada btol2 kt dlm klas falsafah yg dua jam..lg2 falsafah yg agak megetok dan mendodoi mata supaya tertutup dan tido..hahaha...btw in one part of speech tbe2 aku tersedar dan secara kebetolan terdengar..betolkan niat dulu..apa niat kita dtg cni(ipg)..kalau niat xbetol tu yang melahirkan guru yg xberkualiti..ok honestly almost 2 years i am at here i never had a bit of interest in my course..actually in my career...why??im also wondering why...i force myself to like it..to love my field..but i still prefer not to b  a teacher..u know as a teacher u need to show all the kinds and good thing...never do a mistake..attitude tu kena jaga..cara percakapan..cara makan..cara jalan..everything in single of ur movement babe...ntah la..tugas yg terlalu mulia dan berat untuk aku pikul..to be an engineer, not towards the machine but toward the human..stress sbb terlalu banyak tekanan dan halangan untuk capai tahap guru sebenar ni...im smiling and i am laughing..bt inside, my feeling is quite suffering.. i wanna to cry bt my tears never drop out..i triend to laugh bt i do never know the reason why...yes it is the obstacles that i need to face..bt my real attention came here is because of two person who can make me sacrificed everything...bt bila fikir2 mase PBS dulu i do like children..i do like to teach them...tp apasal la still tertekan ek? tu wat aku a little bit of compius...tp ayat brader tu mmg stab trough my heart la..xda singah2 RnR tros smpi point yg betol..then mula la aku teringat kt mak n ayah..rndu sgt2..muah33....syg mak..huk8..nak nangis~~~wuaaaaaa....ok la saja jer nk ckp benda cmtu b4 aq start mengarut dalam assngmnt aku tu..orait..c u then..taraaa~~